What my healing looks like…

Healing can be a dark place just remember to focus on the light.

Now I got saved at 18 years old, I always believed in the lord and what the lord could do in my life. I understand the path I wanted to go down and I know what it meant for me to in that element to be baptized. At 18 years old I still thought I am in control and that my actions don't have any consequences. When I took this step I didn’t think that from that day forward the lord would be working on me for everything in my heart. Naive was an understatement of what I was. My healing process today is to pinpoint what emotion I am feeling.

My healing process up until what it is today was avoidance or overcompensating. I wouldn't take accountability for my part in the situation. I would just remove myself altogether and have no conversation, not even listen to anyone. I realized that in doing that I'm hurting myself more and I am not open to talking through my feelings. Sometimes just talking about the situation helps you process your emotions and actions leading up to and during the situation.

As I get older I understand that things don't go as planned and whether your intentions are good or not there is a consequence to that intention. Do everything with a pure heart and best interest in mind. Have morals and values. No matter what, believe in something greater than yourself. Respect yourself First!! And when I say love yourself know everything that comes with you and love everything you wouldn’t change about yourself and love the things you would.

~MaKayla Wilson